Hi! I’m Kristin. Some of you may know me as Kristabella from my other blog. But if you don’t, here is a little about me and my new site.
I’m currently 42 and single and living in Chicago. I have two amazing nephews and two fabulous nieces. I love them to pieces and I am the proudest Auntie in all the land. Ever since I became an auntie for the first time 18 years ago, I’ve known that I’ve wanted to be a mother.
A few months before my 40th birthday, I had decided that if I hadn’t met someone who shared this dream, I was going to try to get pregnant on my own and be a single mother. The clock was ticking and it was kind of now or never.
But then I met someone. I thought he was the one. He wanted kids as much as I did and he was along for the ride. We tried and tried and after it wasn’t working out naturally, we went to a fertility specialist and tried to figure things out. Basically I’m one of the many women who have “unexplained infertility” because there isn’t anything physically wrong (my tubes are clear, I have a normal uterus, etc.). The only thing “wrong” with me was I have “diminished ovarian reserve”. This was basically saying I was running out of eggs. Not all that much of a shocker, since I was in my 40s after all.
My doctor recommended trying some medicated IUIs, which is basically artificial insemination. It’s the scientific version of the turkey baster method. We did two cycles, both (SPOILER ALERT if the name of this blog didn’t give it away) unsuccessful.
I was literally starting the third medicated cycle when my boyfriend and I broke up. Turns out I was trying to start a family and a life with a pathological lying liar who lies. It is really for the best that we didn’t get pregnant and I found this out earlier rather than later. But still, it broke my heart and shattered my trust. I’m still dealing with all of it on a near-daily basis.
But, a few weeks after this all went down I thought “maybe I wasn’t supposed to have kids with him, but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t meant to not have kids at all”. I mean, it was my plan all along to do this on my own, so why couldn’t I still try that?
So that’s where I am. I’m currently in the process of getting ready for IVF. I’ve met with my doctor and I’m getting close to getting it all started. My insurance at work doesn’t cover any of this, so I am currently getting my body healthy and saving my pennies to pay for it.
I hope you stay tuned for this crazy journey I’m going on!